【心生活盃】身障才藝競賽
個人簡介：
我叫李承勳，現年45歲，長笛是我在國中參加管樂社團學習的；我的個性內向，不善於表達，因此朋友較少，通常是在一個學習階段會有一個比較要好的朋友。自己在性別認同上也有問題，頭腦思緒紛亂，在高中時，因為和一位同學有感情上的關係而進入了教會，當時並不知道自己是生病了，教會裡的弟兄們很包容我，雖然自己很任性，但也就這樣過了大學的四年生活。
在當兵的時候，才發現自己根本融入不了軍中的團體生活，在軍務緊張的氛圍下，壓力很大，收假的時候，都是在壓抑的狀態下回到部隊。後來，送至軍醫院，才檢查出我有重度憂鬱症，也在醫院待了一陣子。
出院後，有一段時間沒有配合醫生叮囑固定服藥，甚至出現了被害妄想，常常在吃飯的時候，以為家人在飯菜裡下毒藥害我，那段時間，莫名的強烈恐懼感一直圍繞著我，甚至連出家門都不敢；後來我接受自己生病了的事實，開始固定回診看醫生，並穩定服藥配合治療。
有一些病友不認為自己有病，不願意配合吃藥；這種病的其中一個原因是大腦的多巴胺分泌出現了問題，一定要配合藥物治療，因此有病識感，配合服藥是很重要的，因著這樣，我慢慢的回到社會上工作，剛開始是在政府的協助下，從事學校臨時人員的工作，後來，更進一步，也開始在學校擔任警衛的工作，過規律正常的生活。
思覺失調症並不可怕，需要自己勇敢站起來去面對，配合醫生團隊，包括治療師、心理師、家人及社會的協助，只要狀況穩定，也是可以在社會從事相對簡單工作的；現在的我就在桃園國中任職警衛值勤人員。
在閒暇的時候，我也會做一些自己喜歡的事，像是創作、長笛演奏...等，來獲得自信並增加與社會互動的機會；我覺得患這個病的人，常常是活在自己的世界裡，也容易有一些錯誤的聯想，因此與人互動能夠幫助自己跳脫這個狀態，活在現實的生活中。
也感謝教會的弟兄們將這位救主耶穌介紹給我認識，當我不舒服的時候，我也會在心裡呼求他的名、向他禱告，我知道他是愛我的，雖然在病中，他仍然賜下恩典，與我同在。
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Personal profile:
My name is Cheng-Shiun, Li, and I am 45 years old. I joined the wind music club to study flute in junior high school. I am introverted and not good at expressing, so I have few friends. Usually, I have a good friend at a learning stage. I also have problems with gender identity, and my mind is confused. In high school, I entered the church because of an emotional relationship with a classmate. At that time, I didn’t know that I was sick. The brothers in the church were very tolerant of me, although I am self-willed, but that is how I spent my four years in college.
When I was a soldier, I realized that I could not integrate into the group life of the army at all. In the atmosphere of tense military affairs, the pressure was very high. When I was on vacation, I always returned to the army in a depressed state. Later, when I was sent to the military hospital, it was discovered that I had severe depression, and I also stayed in the hospital for a while.
After I was discharged from the hospital, I didn’t follow the doctor’s orders to take regular medication for a period of time, and I even developed delusions of persecution. I often thought that my family had poisoned me in the meals when I was eating. I didn't even dare to go out of the house; later I accepted the fact that I was sick, and began to return to see a doctor regularly, and took stable medication to cooperate with treatment.
Some patients do not think that they are sick, and are unwilling to cooperate with taking medicine; one of the reasons for this disease is that there is a problem with the secretion of dopamine in the brain, and they must cooperate with drug treatment. Because of this, I slowly returned to work in the society. At first, with the assistance of the government, I worked as a temporary staff member of the school. Later, I went further and started working as a security guard at the school, leading a regular and normal life.
Schizophrenia is not terrible, you need to stand up to face it bravely, cooperate with the medical team, including therapists, psychologists, family members and the society, as long as the condition is stable, you can also do relatively simple jobs in the society; now I worked as a security duty officer on duty at Taoyuan Junior High School.
In my spare time, I also do some things I like, such as writing, playing the flute, etc., to gain self-confidence and increase opportunities to interact with society; I think people with this disease often live in their own In the real world, it is easy to have some wrong associations, so interacting with people can help you get out of this state and live in real life.
I also thank the brothers in the church for introducing me to this Savior Jesus. When I feel uncomfortable, I will call on His name in my heart and pray to Him. I know that He loves me, even though I am sick. He still gives grace and is with me.)